RIP Suzana Ehsan

I attended a staff funeral this morning. I'd hope to see her but we did not make it on time. We were few minutes late thanks to Malaysian's "perfect" road signage.

We went to her house and saw her baby. She gave birth about a month ago...

I've been seeing and hearing too many familiar death lately... Makes me shivers thinking when will it be my turn... Am I afraid....yes I am...

May Allah s.w.t bless Suzana Mohd Ehsan with His eternal grace and forgiveness...

Bad Aunty...

I was driving to mom's place with the kids on a Saturday morning when 1 idiot drove at what probably seems to be 140km/hour at a very sharp corner and this was my immediate reaction -

WTF!!!

"fuck you!!! fuck you!!!" followed by my middle finger... as usual...

Then I turned to the passenger seat, my niece gave me that innocent look...... In my head ...shit!!! what have I done?? I am pretty sure she damn well know what fuck you and middle finger gesture means...

Bad aunty Mas...bad aunty.... :-(

Mental note - Need to swear less...

If only FB existed much earlier..teeheehee...

Something to ponder.... ;-)

RIP Surfer Boy...

Death can come when it's least expected... It happens every second in every part of the world yet it still comes to us as a surprise...

A friend died last night. An ex-college mate. We're not close but we still go way back when...

May Allah s.w.t bless Rithuan Fitri Abdul Karim with the highest Jannah and that we will become his neighbours... Ameen....

Updated - 12/11/2010

On another sad note - the old skool lead singer of the group Fotograf passed away while playing a friendly match football at Kg. Bharu yesterday evening. Apart from Search and Wings, they are one of my favourite band as well.... those were the days...

Innalillah....

My uncountable desperate need of retail theraphy for 2010...

Frugality is not in my dictionary. Infect is non-existence!!

In an attempt to heal the stress and bashing at work, I have decided to get moi a lil somethin' somethin' ;-)

As picture shown above, yes I got myself a BB. Did it help? Did it heal my bashed mind and soul and heart? It did!!

I am keeping myself busy at home , studying this new gadget and how it actually works and why the Saudi's put a ban on this.

Now where's that manual??

It's JHO LO peepsss...not J-LO...

   

I just had to re-post this from her blog!! She got it spot on!!

I'm sure The Star sold out every single copy of their paper today because of their front page story featuring International Mystery Man Jho Lo. Now we know we don't need scantily clad girls to sell newspapers, some rich chubby fellow will do!

Jho 'Chubs' Lo

But reading Jho's interview is instructive nevertheless. There's a lot to learn from him. So here are a few lessons from the 28 years of Jho Lo's existence:

1. Always go to the best schools eg Harrow, Wharton. So all you people who have to go to all those decrepit sekolah kebangsaans where you only speak BM or Mandarin or Tamil, too bad.

2. When at school, pick your friends carefully. Make sure they are scions of the rich and famous. Forget about the scholarship kids.

3. Stay close to your friends and always make them feel good about themselves. This way, they are sure to trust you. Trust is very important.

4. Make sure you know how to do anything for your friends. Book tables at fancy restaurants and clubs, throw wild parties, order champagne, procure friends who are also rich and famous.

5. Bunk in with friends who can pay USD100,000 for a New York apartment. Never mind if you have to sleep on the couch, the address matters!! (12 people in a 5000-square feet apartment...they all slept in bunks or what?)

6. Be so busy arranging things for your friends that you only have time to eat supersized American meals. But who cares if you're chubby if your wallet seems to be too!

7. Tell everyone how you made your first million at 20 and are now making billions for other people. How exactly, you don't have to say. But it's enough to make more people want to throw more money at you. (Never mind that the finance industry is the most derided right now because of the numbers of people it has impoverished. Not the New York party boys of course!)

8. Get a tame local newspaper to do a free four-page ad for you and make sure they ask you only the questions you want them to ask. Don't let them ask you the questions just about everybody wants to know, like how DO you organise these parties?

9. Insist you're a Malaysian through and through but make no mention of any Malaysian friends. Guess partying in KL or Penang ain't quite the same...

There you go, boys and girls, how to succeed in life the Jho Lo way!! 

Now everyone "lets do the Jho Lo!!!"

Meet my new Jane Holli wallet...

I love my new Jane Holli !!

I needed a walled or more like I wanted a new wallet. To pacify this shopaholic mind, I had to over and over again tell myself  it's ok Mas, your wallet was taken away unjustly in Paris. Although that one you got it free for pwp...stilll??? u need a replacement.... teeeheee....

As I waited for the escalator bringing me up to the ladies handbag area, I already had in mind what I wanted. And before I even landed my feet on the firmer ground I saw it. It was in purple, pink and black. I quickly made my way. And that lady as if she read my mind, "amoi, I show you red kaler, also very nice" Damn she was right!! I fell in love immediately. Although it's a step lower than my previous Braun n Buffel but what the heck!!

So I said, tunggu aaa...I walk walk first and survey. But my mind was smitten by that gorgeous red oily leather, whatever that is. It has all the compartment I needed to stuff all those discount cards. It can even fit my Ipod touch. Wonderful!!!

It's pricey considering I have not heard of this brand before. "Aunty, saper ini jane holli, femes ker?? frm where?" Amoi, dari hong kong ini..manyak femes oooo... Ini range no discount ka aunty??? solly laa amoi...this one no have laaa....""

Aiyooooo...why ouh whyyy....

Aaaaanyway, my last wallet lasted for 3 years, so lets hope this one meet that marks too!! If you divide the purchase price into 3, does not sound that bad...quite an investment... plus it's bigger than a normal wallet, it double as a clutch too!! Fantastic!!

Of still being single....

I have watched it countless times and never get bored of it. Is it the story line? Is it Sandra herself? I am not sure. But that hot bod of ryan reynolds, I am pretty sure that's part of it hahahaha

But this I know... I will surely use that line Margaret said when he proposed to her at the office. That is if I ever get a proposal... I have come to few conclusions as to why I am still single.

1. I am scared. I have been out of relationship for almost 9 years. Note the word - out. It's not even in and out. How pathetic is that?? I have been alone that long that I am not sure if I can handle being a pair. I make decisions without having to make that phone calls well except sometime to my mom...and that is only because it involves big money...teeheeeheee

2. Inferiority complex. If I don't think I am not good enough for any man, why would they think otherwise? I thanked my mom for that. I am sorry but mommies out there, please know what kind of implication you have on your kid when you say things like "if you were slimmer, I am sure men will be attracted to you" or "it's a fact, if I have a son too, I would not want a fat daughter in-law"  Ouchh...that really hurts...BIG TIME!!

Don't get me wrong, I love my mom to bits. I have had my fair share of arguments with her and still do and that's me. I don't blame her as I believe God works in mysterious ways, I just felt that I could do better if only she has faith in me and that size sometimes does not matter.

Will I grow antique gracefully...

We flagged off an entourage of antic car owners.

Looking at them, this is somewhat how I have in mind of how I want to retire. Not exactly having that car but the luxury of time in my own hands.

With God will I have another 25years of working life to go. And if God grant me extension of life with good health, I hope I will be able to contribute something good to mankind or at least mother nature.

There's something about Darling

There's something about Darling

It's so nice to hear good things about her. If only my death will be remembered as such.

Dalam kenangan: Dalilah Tamrin (1967-2010)
Oleh - Elviza Michele Kamal

Langit petang di Tanah Perkuburan Kampung Labuhan Dagang menangis lewat Isnin lepas. Langit di hati saya juga masih kelabu dengan airmata. Jadi, saya memohon kelonggaran dari pembaca budiman agar ruangan Kanvas Kata minggu ini dikhususkan sebagai obituari sahabat saya, Dalilah Tamrin.

Dunia penulis laman web telah bertanggungjawab menemukan kami dalam lingkungan keakraban manusia. Persahabatan kami tidak tua usianya, baru empat tahun sejak pertama kali bertemu mata. Tetapi empat tahun itu getir. Apa yang saya belajar dari Dalilah, boleh diibaratkan seluas laut, setinggi gunung dan setala langit lepas. Tuhan pertama kali menduga Dalilah ketika beliau berusia 37 tahun, di mana Dalilah telah didiagnosiskan mengidap kanser payudara. Bahagian payudara yang tercemar dengan kuman jahat itu segera dibedah dan dibuang jauh-jauh. Selesai pembedahan payudara, enam kitaran chemoteraphy dan 24 sesi radiotherapy, Dalilah menarik nafas lega. Tetapi rasa lega Dalilah cuma bertahan tiga tahun sehaja. Tahun 2008, sekali lagi Tuhan menduga Dalilah. Kanser metastasis telah disahkan merebak ke bahagian hati, tulang rusuk, tulang selangkang dan rahang beliau. Penularan kanser di bahagian hati itu juga telah menempatkan Dalilah sebagai pesakit kanser kronik, tahap keempat. Sekali lagi tubuh badan Dalilah menderita didera rawatan chemotherapy, yang bukan sahaja membunuh sel-sel kanser, tetapi juga setiap zarah sel-sel lain di badan. Tidak tertanggung mata melihat penderitaan Dalilah. Namun, berbekalkan dorongan suami dan anak-anak, Dalilah selesaikan juga enam kitaran DOCE chemotherapy dan lima sesi radiotheraphy. Tidak juga mati kanser jahanam itu! Pada bulan Julai 2009, para doktor dan pakar onkologi bijaksana telah memberi jangkaan bahawa Dalilah hanya ada 18 bulan untuk hidup. Ketika baru mengetahui diagnosis yang menjengkelkan itu saya meradang, saya bertanya kepada Dalilah: Why do doctors love to play God? Dalilah tergelak besar dan berkata: If would worse it you let lawyers play God! Ah, Dalilah�

Ketika arwah masih ada, saya sering mengusik beliau, saya bilang: “Awak ini selebriti penyakit kanser!” Apa tidaknya? Sekiranya dijemput untuk ditemubual di stesen televisyen atau berucap di hadapan pesakit-pesakit kanser yang lain, mutiara kata dan teks ucapan akan Dalilah susun dan rancang serapi mungkin. Elemen-elemen emosi diabaikan untuk memberi laluan kepada semangat dan harapan kepada pesakit kanser yang lain. Setiap kali Dalilah muncul di kaca televisyen, ibu saya adalah antara penonton merangkap peminat setia beliau.

Dalilah bukan seperti pesakit kronik yang pernah saya temui. Tiada kanser di dunia yang mampu memadamkan semangat perempuan kuat ini. Walaupun mengidap kanser tahap keempat, Dalilah tetap berkeras untuk menjalankan tugas sebagai isteri, ibu, penulis laman web dan buku, pejuang penyakit kanser, aktivis kemasyarakatan dan macam-macam lagi. Bukan sedikit jasa dan peninggalan arwah untuk dunia yang fana ini.

Sebelum Dalilah pergi, dia telah menghuraikan perjalanan beliau menentang kanser dalam sebuah buku, Kanser Payudaraku, yang telah diterbitkan oleh Tinta Publisher pada tahun 2009. Beberapa bulan sebelum sakaratul maut datang menjemput, Dalilah sempat mengabadikan pesanan terakhir beliau dalam lagu KembaliKu PadaMu Ilahi.

Saya teringat kata-kata Dalilah ketika saya menangis melihat dia terlantar di katil hospital lewat setahun lepas: “Jangan menangis, Mish. Hidup ini sementara sahaja. Aku tunggu kau di sana ya? Kalau aku mati, kau boleh tulis pasal aku. Kau menulis sangat cantik, macam bidadari!” Sehingga sekarang, masih ada batu besar yang terlekat di kerongkong saya.

Rakan Dalilah, Datin Paduka Marina Mahathir, pernah menyuarakan pendapat bahawa setiap kali selepas menziarahi Dalilah, semua orang akan pulang dengan hati riang. Aneh bukan? Lazimnya jika menziarah orang sakit, kita akan rasa sedih, terharu. Tetapi Dalilah yang saya kenal, memang pantang melihat walau sezarah kesedihan. Senyuman Dalillah lebar lagi murah. Ketawa dan jenaka jadi sulaman walaupun sedang perit berperang dengan chemotherapy.

Semenjak Dalilah sakit, tidak sekali saya mendengar dia mengeluh. Genap seminggu selepas Dalilah melakukan tawaf wida’ di Tanah Haram, roh Dalilah diangkat pulang ke Rahmatullah, pada tanggal 19 Julai 2010. Sekiranya hari ini Dalilah masih hidup, beliau akan menyambut hari jadinya yang ke-43, tetapi Tuhan lebih mengasihi Dalilah. Saya mohon maaf sekiranya garapan ini tidak secantik bidadari, sahabat, tetapi saya sudah mencuba sedaya kudrat.

Benar Dalilah sudah pergi, tetapi obor semangat beliau akan terus menyala dalam setiap hati yang pernah beliau sentuhi. Harimau mati meninggalkan belang, Dalilah mati meninggalkan semangat. Semoga roh Dalilah Tamrin ditempatkan di kalangan para solihin. Tunggu saya di sana, Dalilah. Suatu hari saya juga akan pulang.

� Elviza Michele Kamal merasakan titipan minggu ini hambar sekali, langsung tidak secantik bidadari.

Despicable Me

It's laughable and managed to keep me awake. I was probably tired and if in that state of mind I watched a movie through and through, that means it's worth watching.

When it comes to family kinda movie, I like something with "and the morale of the story is". Yes I am old school that way.

And yes I watched movie during odd hours and odd day and in order to move my lazy ass, I will usually get it online.

The one part that I chuckled alone was went Gru entered this underground bank and a big huge sign on the front says - Bank Of Evil formelly known as Lehman Brothers.... hahahhaa... American being american... kalau kat Malaysia harus dah kena ban.

Dalilah Tamrin aka Kak Darling - RIP

 The world lost a courageous woman today. She battled till the end before the cancer took it all away.  She was one gutsy lady. I cannot imagine myself in her shoes.... nauzubillahminzallik...

Rest in peace kak darling for your are now in a better place with your Creator. May HE grant you the highest Jannah and that we will become your neighbour one day....Insya Allah...

VIVA ESPANYOL!!! The World Champion 2010

I just want to be able to go back and record this moment. I watched a full match with some friends at Melting Pot Cafe - Upper Deck. It was one hell of a match especially the second half. My heart stopped several times. I really wanted Spain to win. The Dutch did not play a clean match. Referee rendered almost 14 yellow cards I think and 1 Red to Heitinga. I thought De Jong should have been red carded for that kick on xavi's chest. Boy that must be painful!!

All well that ends well!!

Hola!!!! Hail the SPANIARDS!!!

Concorde Family Day

I feel I am going to collapse soon!!! Amat penat occay.... and I have 4 more days to go. But this is family day for management level, we sacrifice for the sake of our people to enjoy their day with their families. It's nothing better than seeing faces of kids laughing and jumping around, parents having not to worry about what to eat or where to eat or can they afford a banana boat ride for their 7 kids...

And for this again I am blessed.....

The Holidays - Part 1

After about 5 years I made my way back to Europe however this time on holiday as opposed to working. The only downside - I wish I was going on working purpose. I so missed my time in UK.

My mom and I, flew on the latest SQ big bird, the A380 - It's realllllly huge!! I found myself wondering how God created men with brain to create a giant metal staying on air for that long. It's really amazing. The fact that the turbos engine can carry the body is somewhat amazing. To me at least...

This was our itinerary : -

Paris - Vienna - Milan - Lake Como - Nice - Paris - London - Paris

This holiday was planned carefully and much thanks to mostly mom's fund :-)

It was a tight schedule. And though I did not manage to stick to every little details considering that we have 2 toddlers and mom on a wheelchair, I am happy that we manage to do at least 80% of it.

We stayed at Ayu's n Megat's home. That's my sister. They have this nice spacious apartment by europen standard at a posh district of Paris - District 13 I believe with the nearest station Trocadero and a stone throw away from Tour Eiffel. Fantastic!!

I was glad that our transportation and accomodation were booked on online. With the volcano eruption in Iceland, hotels price went sky high and transportation were either halted indefintely or available at a very ridiculously high price!!

All and all, the trip will be forever cherished and hoping there will come a day I will step my foot again on these beautiful places.

Bragging Rights are back!!

I cannot farking believe I slept right through the 1 match that I've been waiting for a loooong time. Well at least since the last match at Anfield. I can't effing believe this and I am blaming it on the stupid Putrajaya Hot Air Balloon fiesta. I will elaborate that further in my next post.

I woke just in the nick of time before the final whistle blow. I'm a disgraced to myself!! Malu sial nak update status kat twitter pun... So I just update it like I watched the game...Aarrgg.... geram sungguh!!

Anyway, Park did us proud, clinching that 2nd goal. Losing the last 3 matches was really hurtful so this is indeed a sweet revenge.

The Boss was in a good mood... and briefing ended earlier than usual :-) means more work can be done... hehehe

We are 4 points clear of Blues. If we pass Bayern Munich away/home match and another home match with the Blues we are home bebeh!!!

Like Ferguson said, winning the title 19th time is nothing compared to winning the title 4th times in a row. Now that will be something to remember!!!

Bragging rights are back to where they belong!!! The right RED - RED DEVILS!!!

The love hate relationship with shopping..

I seriously have issues with shopping malls especially when I'm entering it knowing I have extra cash or that usable evil gold in color piece of card that have my name engraved on it. It's frightening.

I did not have intention to shop at all today. What I had in mind was, doing a back to back movie session. Which I did. Sigh...why must movie halls be in a shopping malls??? Gonna tell you about the movies later.

Anyway, back to the shopping story.... I ended up buying a cotton sun dress, a blue cardigan and a printed top. And if God did not jammed the line at Forever 21, I would have had with me another dress and a sunny hat. Yes, I justified that I needed the hat for tomorrow's hot air balloon fiesta.. Writing this and not having it, makes me one to rush there again tomorrow....I should have rushed to the ATM and got some cash out. Do you see the danger level here?? I'm a hazard to myself... If there's any consolation for today's impulsive buying, I discovered that I can fit back into size 16...yay!!!

What would it be if I can shop for clothes online?? It will be a hell break loose for my banking account!!! So there's a saving point there for being big :-)

John Travolta looking better and better. I am never disappointed by his acting.

Jonathan Rhys Meyers, I swear he is a sexy dude.... but honestly I wanted to watch this because of the JT factor. I thought the movie was tad bit short for a cinema show minus the fact that for around 20minutes of it I was running in and out of the hall settling some work issues. I'm having it dl and gonna watch it again.

Another propaganda on Islam to the eyes of the world. How the Jihad is like to their eyes. I tend to ignore this fact as for me movie is all about being entertained. And I was entertained especially by JT's ruthless act and idiot sarcasms.








The thing about me, when I want to watch a movie, no 1 on my list are the actors. Though Mel Gibson is not as lethal as he was before, I still like what he did in this movie. Either he really has aged or the make-up guy did a wonderful job. Nothing outstanding in the storyline. Typical American stereotype movie, they built the nukes, they sell it to a foreign country and someone has to take the fall when matters got out of hand. In this case, Mel Gibson's daughter. So you can picture how it goes. It's all political just like From Paris with love.





This is a must see!!! Fantastic!!! Dreamworks did it again with another magnificent production!!

Whatever happen to our very own IMAX 3D? Watching it on IMAX would be way way better....

It's about how the vikings fought the dragon for 3 centuries and eventually Hiccup the Viking chief's son showed everyone that the dragons are indeed their friends and not foes.












I really should go to sleep. I am going to the hot air balloon fiesta tomorrow.


Drats...should have gotten the sun hat to go with my sun dress :-(

Discipline

I hate this when it comes to my personal life. Work wise, I'm all out for it. I can be the Ice Queen of Discipline. The HRM will go, you have got no heart. Yeah..try taking care of 101 Dalmatians....nuff said!!

Anyway, this will be my 3rd blog. Yeah..not only I have disciplinary issues of my own, I am fickle about blogs too. Still trying to do soul searching of the blogging world. I used to update my blog and blog hop regularly until the evil FB came into this virtual world. Damn, it's evil... from counting stats, I went into updating and checking stats..only this time stats stands for status...:-(

They say money is root of all evil, I'd say Mark Zuckerberg is the root of all evil and it's damn bloody addictive!!

So as of today, I, Mas Zuhairin will update my blog regularly.

In exactly 31minutes I will be at the upper deck in front of the plasma to see who my favourite team will draw for their next battle in triumphing the Championship League.

You can count on me being on time for that!! Now that's what I call discipline.

~updates as @ 7.45pm

Man United will play Bayern Munchen and if we win this we will play either Bordeux or Lyon. In summary, we need to screw the Germans and kill the French to at least have the hope to bring that cup back to OT.

Welcome to the single shack...

I'm the opposite of everything that I can think off....

Skinny - Fat
Pretty - Ugly
Long hair - Short hair
Tall - Short
Fair - Dark
Rich - Poor (I need more kachingggg!!!)

If there's anything positive that I like, it would be;

Sad - Happy :-)

Am I happy?? Most of the time I am, I laugh a lot too... they say laughter is the best medicine, for me laughter is the best cover up and best way to delay those wrinkles...

Apart from believing that I am still not hook up because I am fat (in the word of my mom, Intan if slim skit, mesti ada orang nak) otherwise anything in this world for me is possible and achievable if I put my heart into it!!