Abah and Alzhemier

Abah was admitted into UH 3 days ago. It's finally confirmed that he has pneumonia on top of his inconsistency of sugar and bp level. Not forgetting his weak heart.

But the worst part of all is, is his Alzheimer. We had to tie his hands most of the times when he gets restless and last night, his feet too :-(

It breaks my heart to see him like this. Once in a while he will scream for help, police...etc...

Just breaks my heart.

Allah s.w.t knows best!

Bad Aunty...

I was driving to mom's place with the kids on a Saturday morning when 1 idiot drove at what probably seems to be 140km/hour at a very sharp corner and this was my immediate reaction -

WTF!!!

"fuck you!!! fuck you!!!" followed by my middle finger... as usual...

Then I turned to the passenger seat, my niece gave me that innocent look...... In my head ...shit!!! what have I done?? I am pretty sure she damn well know what fuck you and middle finger gesture means...

Bad aunty Mas...bad aunty.... :-(

Mental note - Need to swear less...

Of still being single....

I have watched it countless times and never get bored of it. Is it the story line? Is it Sandra herself? I am not sure. But that hot bod of ryan reynolds, I am pretty sure that's part of it hahahaha

But this I know... I will surely use that line Margaret said when he proposed to her at the office. That is if I ever get a proposal... I have come to few conclusions as to why I am still single.

1. I am scared. I have been out of relationship for almost 9 years. Note the word - out. It's not even in and out. How pathetic is that?? I have been alone that long that I am not sure if I can handle being a pair. I make decisions without having to make that phone calls well except sometime to my mom...and that is only because it involves big money...teeheeeheee

2. Inferiority complex. If I don't think I am not good enough for any man, why would they think otherwise? I thanked my mom for that. I am sorry but mommies out there, please know what kind of implication you have on your kid when you say things like "if you were slimmer, I am sure men will be attracted to you" or "it's a fact, if I have a son too, I would not want a fat daughter in-law"  Ouchh...that really hurts...BIG TIME!!

Don't get me wrong, I love my mom to bits. I have had my fair share of arguments with her and still do and that's me. I don't blame her as I believe God works in mysterious ways, I just felt that I could do better if only she has faith in me and that size sometimes does not matter.